I had a very interesting experience.
It was using self healing tools, I was taught, of soul healing using fractal theory, forgiveness...integrating and journeying to wholeness, via life experiences and emotional responses.
An emotional key brought insight on an original energy, to my attention. After a bit of insight, I began a process of forgiving a past (11 years ago) relationship's pain and emotional indifference, from the other party.
Moving through the process, which is initially emotional, other insights and deeper emotions began to surface. With an "Aha!" realization, I'm seeing this pattern, of wanting physical/mental/emotional release, in times of deep pain (previously), have been an attempt (and humanity, as a whole, I believe) to eradicate man's, genetically encoded, instinct to place survival above all else. A realization, followed by an acceptance and surrender to healing of all incarnated souls, with Light.
There is a memory, somewhere inside of me, where I decided to choose love first...before basic survival, in an attempt to avoid a life without love, passion...loving life. The missing link here, is that I felt a need to choose.
In the healing experience, I felt relatives and ancestors (vast amounts), who suffered lives of emptiness, in attempts to "survive no matter what".
Recognizing the many ways, in which the heart/emotional body "shields itself" after painful experiences, opened me to really thinking. This erasure of passion and purposing, due to the need to "survive", has lead to our DNA structure re-configuring, similar to the way that all species evolve.
I'm feeling, that those of us here, are being awakened to the belief that life, with love, is possible and is our soul's destiny and human right, gifted from the divine. We're hearing a call, to a deep soul remembrance, of our true nature.
Innately, we are re-striving towards harmony, within and without. Purpose is calling each of us, from within, it would seem.
Has longing for balance, without result, has lead many humans toward seeking absence/non-presence (numbing using outside stimuli to avoid the void-TV, drugs, constant motion, striving for material success void of purpose, etc.) and/or patterns of self destructive behavior vs. mere Existence?
This experience, today with me, re~sounds "yes!". With it, there was a releasing of fear, on an instinctual level and an acceptance and claiming of "wholeness capabilities", in all areas.
Many scientists and spirituals have shared similar ideas and research platforms, which intellectually, I've agreed with. Today, I felt and saw the capabilities...renewing my beliefs in our 'Humanity's divine Re~membering'.
So DIVINE! This FEELING of a truth unveiled ...!
YES - this is what we have come to heal: the fight for survival!
DEA'TH is an illusion!
FEAR is an illusion!
The need to fight to survive is an illusion!
The only reality is LOVE ... multifaceted, unconditional, all enveloping LOVE ... and to FEEL it is the GOAL - lol!
I have started to break free now from the grip of fear by MOVING on ... realizing more and more that my task as a teacher is not only to teach my students - but also to change the system where needed ... in a loving and allowing way, without fear of job loss - LOL!
I am currently taking on responsibility for my daughter's class as well. YES - it's time to get rid of the numbness and petrification which held me prison for a while now - it's time to MOVE ON!
I trust now that I am acting in full resonance to the bigger picture even if I can still see only part of it.
Thank you, AyAnna for this post!
LOVE and LIGHT,
Thank you, Sonja, for reading, being here, sharing your resonance and the working with your, evolutionary, life experience. You are such a, beautifully rippling, light.
This experience is directly related with a post, that resulted from incoming energies, from part of one of my past/circular lives (major soul piece, which was re-integrated this summer~huge spirit and female archetype), placed in "Resonance" group yesterday: http://lightgrid.ning.com/group/resonance/forum/topics/searching-to...
It's all so much and so perfect (including the beautiful spirits I'm working with now (human and other~all of us teaching and learning with each other), that I 'm amazed, humbled and "always knew it was so" at the same time.
Starting to see/feel in many different directions and vantage points...this is really something.
Thank you my Sis~star !
Thank you Light Grid~