THE BARRIER OF THE CONTROLLING EGO
Fear of death and polarization of the egoic mind are two of the strongest traits of our human oddity.
They are part of a genetic structure that has been manipulated time and time again by certain influences, taking us further away from our original nature.
As we shift into a more balanced form of transparency, the layers of our pre-programmed sheath unplug, to eventually unveil our illumined core.
Releasing the polarization of the "need to be in control" is no easy task. It requires us to stand naked in front of the mirror, while our manipulating ego is exposed and neutralized. The resistance to looking and the pride to hide has to be fully surrendered. Very often, these negative imprints are unconscious to the beholder, which makes this an extremely challenging condition to uproot.
Following is the short list of the more common locking mechanisms that prevent our transition into an unbounded nature.
This begins with the fear of death, the core anxiety and main reason why the ego sets itself up to maintain a manipulating stance in our personality's brief existence.
Please review and see if any of these apply to you.
Fear of Death:
- Fear of being out of control
- Needing to have everything in order around you
- Over emphasis on security and securing yourself
- Fear of the dark
- Prolonged grief and anxiety over loss
- Uncomfortable to be alone
- Fear of intimacy
- All of the others below.
A Territorial Nature:
- Driven by having a sense of personal territory
- Holding on to energy, coveting information, hoarding
- Comparing what is yours versus what is someone else's
- Keeping secrets, telling secrets
- Fear of being robbed, over insuring yourself
- Overemphasis on needing protection
- Constantly focused on wanting, having, owning
- Judging your worth based upon what you own or have
To Control or to be Controlled:
- Needing to be in control
- Allowing yourself to be controlled
- Subtle mind manipulations to get people to believe or agree with you
- Projecting or forcing your ideas upon others
- Being controlled through external dependencies
- Attachment to teachings, masters, psychics, channeling, external guidance systems, spiritual practices
- Dependence upon outside tools from which to access supposed power and information.
- Being controlled through materialism and materialistic views
- Being controlled through attachment to people, things and circumstances
- Controlled by your fears, anxieties, stress, self pity, anger, complaints
- Controlled by your sensual pleasures
- Controlled by money
- Controlled by societal programming, traditions
Behaviors of Compulsion, Obsession and Aggression:
- All compulsive behavior and reactions
- Not feeling secure unless things are figured out, needing a logical plan
- All acts of oppression, obsession or aggression
- Using force or pressure to make someone do something
- All behaviors of conflict, division, and separation
- Addiction to polarity and the extremes of life
- All energies having to do with over consuming, seeking, getting, competing
- Addiction to rituals, ceremonies, spiritual practices, the media, the internet
- Substance addictions such as tobacco, alcohol, drugs, food, caffeine, sugar
- Life addictions such as working, winning, being perfect, relationships, making money
- Addiction to family dramas
- Needing to have things... the bigger/better/more syndrome
- Seeming split personality (kind and gentle to harsh and mean)
- Quick emotional reaction without thinking or feeling things through
- Being antagonistic, argumentative, needing to feel right
- Defending, justifying, taking sides
- Seeing something as right or wrong
- Holding an attitude of "us against them", seeing or perceiving a "they"
- Racism even on the subtlest levels
- Emotional states like fear, guilt, anger, resentment, frustration
Attachment to Identity, Fear and Victimhood
- Always concerned about your reputation, what others will think
- Fear of losing your identity
- Constantly scanning for threats, always thinking about survival, what could happen
- Fear and resistance to letting go of your belief systems and structured life
- Not taking personal responsibility for the creation of your life experience
- Blaming outside influences
- You often feel being taken advantage of
- All forms of conscious thoughts that put you as the victim