Ascension Insights: Hit Me With Your Best Shot -- Ouch

[Myriel RAouine]

Ascension Insights: Hit Me With Your Best Shot -- Ouch

by Jennifer Hoffman
November 3, 2010

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Hi everyone,
 
Last weekend I got rid of old papers that I have been carrying around with me for over twenty years. As I watched them burn in the fireplace (burning felt more clearing than just throwing them away), I felt like a huge weight had been removed from my life. So much of what I got rid of was a reminder of the difficulties and challenges I was experiencing then and I knew it was time to move on. And I asked for confirmation that I had released everything that I needed to. "Hit me with your best shot," I told the Universe, "because I am ready to let go of everything." I know better than to ask a question like that without being prepared for a very direct answer. And I got mine in a rather painful way that was an 'ouch,' two of them in fact. 

 

By Sunday evening I didn't feel well and on Monday I awakened with a full blown cold. OK, I get that, when we release we get confirmation in our physical body. So I have been struggling through my cold for the past few days. It's not serious and I know that I will feel better in another day or two. But my second confirmation was the one that was really tough. 

 

I have been trying to set up a joint venture with someone and last week I finally got the confirmation I had been waiting for. I was so excited and pleased because it was a great opportunity. But after a brief email I didn't receive anything else. Days went by with no communication even though I sent several emails asking for what was needed to finalize our agreement. Then I began to wonder whether the deal was off, was I just imagining that this person wanted to do business with me, did I read too much in the emails, were they going to renege on our agreement? Could I trust them? 

 

I felt sick from disappointment, a response that was really out of alignment with the situation. This was not the end of the world and if it didn't work out there were other opportunities. But there was something else here. Then yesterday I remembered something that had happened when I was eleven and everything fell into place. Here's the story: 

 

When I was eleven I wanted a pair of brown suede, knee high, lace up granny boots (hey, it was 1972). In those days kids didn't have money and my parents believed that children should wear sensible shoes and these did not fit that model. The shoes cost about $25, which was a lot of money then and a lot more than I had at the time.  But my father said that if I made good grades that school term he would buy them for me. So I worked hard, did my homework plus extra work for good measure and made sure I was in school every day. At the end of the term, I had done it -- I made the highest marks in the class and even won an attendance award. 

 

So I proudly showed my father my report card and reminded him about his promise. He looked at me and said that he didn't think that it shouldn't take a bribe to make me do my school work (I was already a good student) and said that he was just kidding, he wasn't going to buy the shoes for me, but he was proud of me for working so hard. I was shocked at his duplicity. He had promised to buy the shoes and had just broken that promise. He misrepresented himself, showed me that he was not trustworthy and had been very disrespectful. 

 

Although I argued with him, he wasn't going to buy the shoes for me. So I decided I would get them anyway. I did some babysitting, ran errands for neighbors, talked by brother and sister into giving me most of their allowance if I did their chores for them, begged the local market owner to let me bag groceries for customers and in two weeks I had the money. I took the bus into town, went to the shoe store and bought my brown suede, knee high, lace up granny boots, which I proudly wore to school the next day. 

 

But every time I looked at those shoes I remembered how unfair my father had been, how he had taught me that it doesn't matter what people tell you they will do, there is always a chance that they won't keep their promises and for many years that was my experience. 

 

That was the bigger issue for me, my father had shown me that I couldn't trust him. He made a promise that I suspect he had no intention of keeping. I honored my part of it not realizing that he was not going to do his part. And for many years after that I had experiences with people I couldn't trust, who broke their promises and who did not honor their commitments to me. 

 

I'm sure that my father had no idea of the impact this had on my life because this was part of his life experience. He was given up for adoption by his parents at an age where he was old enough to know what was happening. I am sure that there were extenuating circumstances around the situation but he never knew what they were. In his world, people didn't honor commitments or keep their promises, so this is what he taught his children. 

 

He could have chosen differently but that is not what he did. Interestingly enough, when he was sick and needed someone to care for him at the end of his life he turned to me. And I honored my commitment as his daughter and took care of him until the day he died. 

 

I don't have those boots any more (although I kept them for many years), but I still have the memory of my father's broken promise to me. And that is what was triggered with this person. Were they going to break our agreement, did they really mean it when they said that we should become partners, and more importantly, could I trust them? 

 

So with this new understanding of one of my important lessons I sent an email to the company that detailed my understanding, what I expected from them and a due date for them to honor. If their reply is positive, that's great. If not, I'll find someone else to work with. What a lesson and what a release. While I'm glad I have this information, I hope I don't have to go through that again! 

 

What is your experience with people who don't honor their commitments to you? Do they have something to teach you? Is this in alignment with the way they believe the world works? Can you look at it from both sides and then, once you have seen what they have to teach you, choose to align yourself with people who honor their commitments? Are there empowering ways for you to turn this challenging lesson into a blessing?

 

In these interesting and transformational times, we can be overwhelmed by what is happening in our lives but there are always other solutions. Here are a few things to help you get through the difficult moments in your life: 

 

Stay calm, focused, detached and aware and remember your thoughts are creating every moment of your life. Think the best ones.
 
As you ponder this and the other things that are happening at this time remember to:
 
Accept all gifts of understanding with gratitude and use them to apply forgiveness, release and healing to every situation.

Ask for guidance and confirmation and then wait for it to come to you.

Above all, be grateful for this opportunity to be part of humanity's amazing shift in consciousness as we all ascend into the miracle vibration.
 
Many blessings in these miraculous and amazing times, 

Jennifer Hoffman

 

Article Copyright ©2010 by Jennifer Hoffman. All rights reserved.

 

About the author

 

Jennifer Hoffman is an intuitive, spiritual healer, mentor, teacher and author. She also channels the energy of the Archangel Uriel.  Jennifer has helped many people through the Shift through her unique insights and counsel, facilitating their healing journey. Jennifer is the founder of www.urielheals.com, an on-line spiritual healing and growth center and dedicated to the messages and teachings of Archangel Uriel.  Information about Jennifer's books, on-line seminars and services is available at her websites, or email [e-mail] for information.   * Enlightening Life  www.enlighteninglife.com  *  email: [e-mail] * 

 

[QiKiPagan]

I so get this I have boxes of paperwork in my front room most of it will be for a fire too but sometimes when i have thought al get started on that box, its amazing the way simple things that are never top of my daily agenda suddenly take priority like; that cutlery doesnt look as shiny as it should al give it a polish lol The box of paperwork(painful Memories mixed with some amazing achievements) remains on the shelf unsorted meanwhile me and my kids are eating dinner off the shiniest cutlery. does it improve the qulity of the food on the plate No! would i feel better and would getting rid make way for the life i have been and still put effort into creating Absoloutely Yes! Think al make that my task for Wednesday morning, I get kid free time then for 3 hours Bring on the Cleansing and the Creation.
Blessed Be

[Myriel RAouine]

I know exactly what you mean - LOL!

I'm once again sitting here doing what I like - instead of preparing classes for tomorrow ;-)

I'll have to finish now, I guess, and do what has to be done!

BLESSINGS of LOVE and LIGHT and INTEGRATION,

Sonja Myriel

[Dr. SohiniBen Shukla]

Dear Sonja,
I like Jennifer is talking so natural.....
Sohiniben.