It’s like I am not present

It’s like I am not present,

a kind of not being

and yet still aware.

some internal quietness

that refers to an ongoing process

and the feeling of upcoming events.

Nothing to do – no re-action acquired.

A kind of distant feeling,

or is it detachment.

that rooms through my being.

It’s like the radar of hearing

is shut off,

only to pick up the signals

from within…

When the inside meets the outside



Today is a stormy and windy day outside and it matches my inner emotions as well my need to express them. Missing my loved one today is being triggered by another first step without him. Meeting his parent who is truly heartbroken by the loss of his first born, is asking a lot of my esteem to hold the energy high and be there for him in order to acknowledge his pain and sorrow. As I mentioned…

Your presence and existence is enough for this world and planet - Just Be - signed Herman

When I received this message through the veil the other day I immediately felt the energy flow of love coming through.

He is my other half, my other self in other dimension

As we are in this lifetime no longer physical together.

This also is a confirmation of where he is right now,

What Is It About Time and Creation

This morning, someone mentioned that you have already been gone for a week. How did this pass so swiftly?

Yet, it did not. So, how do you explain what you sense? How do you explain the mechanism of time as an experience?

I see you when I see you

From stardust we are made and the soul is on its journey again

Leaving its trail and footprints where the experiences took him.

The physical suffering as a way of learning how to shed of 

The last lingering burdens that were still to be addressed

Clearing and cleaning down the basement so to speak

Where no one wants to set foot for it holds to much fear

There you will find your greatest…

What is it about hidden desire and pleasure?

To burn with desire and keep quiet about it is the greatest punishment we can bring on ourselves.”

― Federico García Lorca, Blood Wedding and Yerma

When we were given the topic about desire and pleasure I was writing yesterday and after closing it of it occurred to me, I haven’t said it all about this topic for it has so many layers to cover.

If we want to understand desire in combination with pleasure we also have to be able…

I want you to live your life to the fullest

Today I make the commitment with myself

Your sensuality is your Highest Gift

Your sensuality is Your Highest Gift.

If you believe in becoming the Pillar of Light

means to be esthethic and impersonal

think again.

It’s about the Heart Connection,

with all there is, I AM That..

Love, Sexuality, Compassion.

that’s when all these are coming together

In One explosion of Love and

creates the Heart Orgasms

in total surrender to Love

in all its…

Let me feel your Love

Oh my sweet

Let me feel your Love.

Let me see your splendor

May you watch your Self

With the eyes of High Self

And see the wonder that

Lies within your Heart 

Instead of this feelings of distress.

May you feel the Divine Love

That is yours to Begin with 

And the warmth and beauty of it inhale

To let the healing energy

Wash away any old lingering parts,

Still feeling sorrow or…

Physical challenges, mind over matter?

It is not the strength of the body that counts,

but the strength of the spirit

J.R.R. Tolkien