i am new here,,, was fortunate to find a place like this in such a directway. i am asking for prayersfor the very difficult place i am in w/ my health. a little background-
i have had lyme disease and associated illness for 9 years, it mainly presents as out of body like nuerological/de-realization symptoms, xtreme fatigue , nervous system dysfunction etc... basically debilitating. esp right now. i actually have many of these related infections i've accumulated due to the extreme immune defficiency and they wreak havoc thru multysystems of my body. i just recently unknowingly stirred much heavy metals, mercury etc recirculating them in my system from a treatment i should have stayed clear of. now the consequences,,, my kidneys are weaker than they have ever been as i stumble around,forcing myself thru willpower to get up on my own two feet and take care of my basics.
i am in a position where doing nothing is the best i can do,,, any intervention could make matters much worse... so lots of caution. the reality i face reminds me of something in advanced martial arts/spiritual warriorship... by not being able to treat the infections in my brain and body they are rising like a tide esp from the wake of the heavy metal disaster. this means that right now i am experiencing them as a psychosis state/almost scizophrenic state/symptoms rising in power while i stand by and watch(as calmly as i can, which i have to say is one of the greatest challenges i've ever faced) because taking any action would be entirely pre-mature and dont think my kidneys could handle. since i have to be the leader of my health program,even w/ the best doctors, it is up to me not to panick and try to rush into a treatment that could seriously have consequences. no doctor is going to excerise such caution. i have turned to the I-ching which has provided deep insight and given me strength to temper this storm w/out acting rashly and too soon.
i wanted to ask for your prayers. in helping provide a very gentle nourishing stream of strength back into my kidneys to support my body again. i have to say prayers i feel safe w/,
reiki or energy work i have to say no to because my fragility and never knowing how my extremely hypersensitive nervous/immune system will respond to it. many times healers w/ the highest of intentions and integrity have even caused a traumatic response in my energy field,,,, cant have that right now....! so i am asking for prayers,,, just prayers if you can....
I am praying for you.
i am praying for you. our source holds you in loving embrace. be at peace and hold to this love. blessing you dear one.
thank you all for that protective layer of light and love.... i do feel a bit more stable today. i am in the center of the storm and know that self-love and self-compassion and trust is the pivot point for me to heal this disease.... it has grown in momentum, the disease, so i do have to accept that w/ the good energys of change i still have this illness at the moment which sort of has a life of its own,,, that will calm. its kind of like a forrest fire that has been allowed to burn out of control. and the kidneys.... learning their role in holding the key to my life force and potential in transformation and renewal.
i am thanking you all and each one of you individually....
arctorus- yes, i was connecting w/ archangel gabriel last night because i feel he can help especially w/ this dilemma i'm in and restoring my creative force... the info on naming is very interesting, i have been into that myself. what does arctorus mean?
i like the strength and structure i feel in that name,,, i'm sort of looking for my place of origin which is why i was drawn to the lightgrid site here.
I just found this - and decided to post ... you can watch the whole film at youtube - or here: The Living Matrix ~ The Science of Healing - auch auf DEUTSCH!!!
No problems-healing energy on the way! You can also contact www.the-dhn.com for healing as well. They have a huge amount of healers there as well.I'm on a LOA due to health problems with my kids and husband and myself.
great to know about... the internet really has some profound potential... love the expansion of communication....