In my chakra class last night we did a meditation about fear as part of exploring our root chakra. In the energy work and clearing work I’ve been doing the past several months, I’ve faced many fears, and aspects of myself that were scary. In this meditation, it was about descending into a scary basement (root chakra) that was filled with boxes that had scary stuff in them. We were guided to enter into this scary place and illuminate it with our light, and see that it isn’t as scary as we fear. Our angels and guides were also present with us. We were then asked to pick out a single box we felt guided to, and to see it take center stage in the basement. I had already taken a peak inside a box, which had a decomposing corpse in it, so that is what I expected to find.
However, the box that was guided to take center stage was not the same box. Instead it was a much larger vertically oriented box (maybe 3 meters high by 1.5 meters square). When the box stopped in the center of the room, a pentagram formed below it on the floor, and black and red candles appeared at the corners.
Okay, I guess I know where this is going…
The point of the meditation was to sit in the feeling of fear, and really notice what it feels like. Have a conversation with fear to better understand the role fear plays, and then see how good and open we feel once fear has been released.
In this meditation, my analytic mind wasn’t helping me at all.
I allowed the feeling of fear to wash over me. I could feel my heart rate increase, my skin become clammy and sweaty, the anxiety build. When we were told to allow the box to open, mine exploded and a fiery demon stood inside, red flaming sword and all. My mind said “Obviously this is just another aspect of myself that I need to embrace and love/forgive.”
Because I was allowing fear to wash over me, doubt also entered into the scenario. “What if I am wrong, and this is actually a being that doesn’t wish me well, and I should be protecting myself?” I wasn’t really concerned for my wellbeing, because my Angelic guides, as well as Dragons, were right next to me, but by allowing fear to persist, this doubt just grew in stature, which made the fear even more palpable. When I get into this mode, ‘fight or flight’ comes into play. I felt myself debating what I was going to do. Do I destroy this demon? As I am contemplating this, I feel my Archangel wings extend and my sword light up. I imagined horrible things I might have done as this demon, or with the malevolent energy represented. Still deciding…
I did not destroy the demon, for I was convinced that this demon must be a part of me, just as so many other scary or negative aspects of myself have surfaced before. When I made that decision, I watched ‘him’ dissolve in light, but that lingering doubt also showed him escaping. I’m sure I’ll be revisiting this one.
The meditation ended with an army of angels clearing out the room of the fears that did not serve us...
Thank you so much, Paul!
Love & Blessings !!