lightgrid, St-Germain, gridwork, 7-Ray, Violet Ray, net-of-light
Although it's been sort of a tough week, with many lower energy moments, I've been able to connect fairly easily when I do so. I've been meditating daily, and having conversations with my guides as well.
Today I revisited my time spiral to see if anything new had come forward. In my recent blog post I had released what I thought and felt were the last of my shadows in need of clearing, but I still feel compelled to look periodically.
I entered the spiral and saw the beautiful flowing golden light I saw the last moment I was there. Archangel Michael had to point out a young girl crouched down and curled up. She was no shadow, she was glowing with beautiful energy.
I approached her and asked who she is and what she is doing. She said she has been waiting for me. She is my daughter in this lifetime, and she has been with me in many lifetimes.
She was pretty deep in my time spiral indicating to me, this lifetime was "long ago." We talked for a bit and embraced each other with deep love and compassion. I asked how long she had been waiting, and the answer was that it has been an eternity, and yet, like just yesterday. (Weird thing this non-linear time...).
I asked her to show me what happened. We walked out of a lush jungle of foliage on a pathway into a beautiful meadow. I've seen this meadow in my mind many times before. In the meadow as a space ship. Apparently, I boarded the ship, and never returned to her or her mother.
I have had strong, even extreme, reactions to anything related to abandonment or the idea of that related to her. It has been one of my big issues in this life (current). I'm not sure if this abandonment continued for multiple lifetimes or not, but it has certainly haunted me in this one.
I feel like this experience has cleared that for me. It has made it even more crystal clear to me that I will never abandon her again. It has also made it clear that I must cherish the moments I have with her as well.
I asked her if she wanted to visit Agartha, so I assumed my dragon form, she got on my back, and away we went to the crystal temple I visited before. It was nice way to conclude my meditation.
I've added this last bit later as I forgot about it until after I posted this. I need to say that I had a very hard time forgiving myself for this. I almost didn't as a matter of fact. I spent a lot of time wallowing in this feeling of regret. At one point in this, hundreds of beings came forward. All of them were me in past/other lives, and seeing myself in many different clothes and forms pushed me over the edge of forgiveness. How could I not forgive myself when all of me was standing around me and my daughter was asking me to do it as well? As I said earlier, I've struggled with this for a long time, and I've even had Archangel Ariel show me having committed suicide in the future due to this issue not being resolved and happening again.
This is powerful stuff!