Born out of Ashes

[Julie Bolduc]

As I look back at the last year, I am amazed by everything that has happened and by the way I was reborn out of ashes into my Higher Self.

It all started with this terrible word that everyone seems to be afraid of: depression.

For me, although I acknowledge that it was very difficult to take that journey, I can honestly say that it was to most empowering experience of my life, because I have lived it, I have welcomed into my heart and into my body every single painful experience that I had accumulated up until that moment. I completely surrendered. I stopped fighting against myself, and I let everything surface... only to be released.

In order to tap into the empowering potential of this journey into our deepest self, I believe there are two key ingredients: vulnerability (accepting to let everything surface) and courage (embracing the pain of the experience instead of turning on the defense mechanisms of flight and fight).

Depression needs to be respected for what it is. Looking at the non medical definition, it suddenly starts to make more sense and it helps to understand the purpose of those periods. A depression is literally what it sounds like: moving into an area lower than the surface. And it is in that descent that we discover that there is so much more to us then what meets the eyes. The lower we descend, the more layers we discover, until we touch the very core, the center of our being, only to realise that it was completely covered up by those layers of experiences and of labels that society and ourselves have put on our Core Self, to the point where it became impossible to see clearly who we are supposed to be, who we deeply want to be. And once we have taken the time to go through those layers, we find that the core is nothing like we expected and that we are living out of alignment with our True Self.

As I was slowly but surely walking my way back to life, I came to the realisation that negative feelings (sadness, depression, anger, etc.) are in fact the expression of a disconnection between who we consciously are, and who we subconsciously feel we’re supposed to be.

I also came to realise that «depression» is a once in a lifetime opportunity.  If we really embrace the idea that it is a journey into our Core Self instead of giving in to the concepts created by modern society, it becomes a powerful tool of empowerment.

One of the major problems resides in the way society considers «depression»: you are quickly labelled as having a problem, as being somewhat broken and needing to be fixed.   But this is a pure creation of our modern society and it actually creates problems where there is none: the more you are told that there is something wrong with you, the more you believe it, the more you feel an urge to be fixed and by doing so, you are automatically in fight or flight mode: you continue to refuse to welcome and embrace what is.  You just want out of there as quickly as possible.  We live in a very fast pace world, where we are not allowed to take the time to go through our experiences. We must make a conscious choice to take that time.

In some cultures, depression doesn’t even exist: these periods of transition really are respected for what they are: a deep exploration of the Self, where you get the opportunity to separate the wheat from the shaft.  You realize that it isn’t true that you are like this or like that; you realize that labels were put on your True Essence by others and/or yourself, and that you have taken them on as a persona.

And in these realizations lies the potential for full empowerment of the True Self. 

Who do you feel you really are?  Where do your limiting beliefs come from?  What action can you take to step in the direction of your True Self?

[Sonja Myriel]

Thank you so much, Julie!!!

[Lynette Williams]

Dear Julie

This is really great.  I am going to print this and give it to some of the  people I see who feel depressed, this is the line I have been working along for how they are feeling.

Beautifully put.

Love Lynette

[Julie Bolduc]

You are very welcome Lynette.

This was offered in Service.

Love, Light, Blessings,

Julie

[Glo]

Thank you ever so much for the information!!! We can all use this in our walk to integrate with Soul! I know there is a special message here for me....I feel it! I will meditate on this, the picture is shockingly for me also as my Spirit name is Fireflier....one who flies with fire. My Spirit literally came up out of the ashes once at a sweat lodge and flew into the cosmos, that is when I found out my Spirit's name! I will study this with many thanks !! I am printing for myself and to share!

Ah Ho!

Love & Rainbows,

Gloria

[Julie Bolduc]

It warms my heart to see that sharing my own experience can bring so much peace, insights, and love to others.  Many thanks for sharing.

 

Love, Light, Blessings,

 

Julie